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utterly uninteresting dream/special education nattering )
Anyways, I woke up lonely and restless and bored. Lonely is a problem because I don't have enough of interest to talk about to justify waking up [livejournal.com profile] koyote again. Restless is a problem because I'm likely to start frantically cleaning again and, if I'm not going to sleep, at least I should get some rest. Maybe I'll try the irc client on this thing again.

Leif has another stupid cold and keeps waking up coughing. Poor dude. I can't wait till he has a yard to go run around and go crazy in. Not that that would help his cough any.
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At the moment I feel like eating nothing but salad with some sort of added protein (but not nuts or cheese), fruit, and maybe something like yogurt or pudding or non-chocolate ice cream as my entire diet until the baby is born. Everything else seems like it would make me feel yucky one way or another.

I suppose there are worse diets.

I've been feeling really yucky in general lately, enough so that I'm dreading 1-2+ more months of this. I don't remember feeling this yucky last time, even at the very end. I probably just need more exercise, though. On the other hand, it was easier last time because I could more easily follow a "sleep when I happen to feel like it" sleep pattern after about this point.

Wow, that was a little scary. Someone called [livejournal.com profile] koyote. From the conversation, I figured it was probably our friend Christine. Leif apparently made the same mental leap, because he asked "Is that Christine?" It wasn't like the context clues were blatant, either. He might have been able to hear her, but she isn't someone he knows terribly well, so that would surprise me a little too.

Now he's back to the pretend game he's playing with his dinosaurs. Dinosaurs and a rubber chicken.

And now he is dissecting a tampon. Ah, the life of a 3 year old.

After his slight wandering the first night, he slept all night in the room by himself for the other three nights. Makes me wish there was a real possibility of a separate room for him in the near future. Same room/separate bed seemed so sensible until I found out how well he sleeps on his own!
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If I thought I could get Leif to go to sleep now, take a nap myself, and then take him to the playground at like midnight (when it's only 85 or so out), I would.

If anyone local felt up to it, I'd do it regardless of nap, though I may try just getting us up at 6AM instead.

So hot and yucky. I'm guessing he really needs to get some energy out, though. Our bathing suits aren't here, so I can't go throw him in the pool. Ugh. He is so frantic being cooped up inside, but I don't know what else to do with him besides the library, Borders, or a pool. And getting to any of those is still painful.
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Insomnia sucks.

I should have been dead to the world after yesterday's pool party, but I think I got about 3 hours of sleep last night. Life events and/or my general inability to sleep while pregnant (I can be not stressed at all and lie there awake perfectly happy but unable to fall asleep), combined with Leif's restless sleeping due to a cold, kept me awake until 4AM or so, when I finally started to nod off.

Then the chainsaws started.

Don't ask me why chainsaws and what sounded like other tree-trimming/chopping equipment were running at 4AM on a Sunday morning.

Then soon after that was done, [livejournal.com profile] koyote started having an asthma attack.

Then Leif started his usual morning restlessness, which left my remaining sleep time interrupted and weird.

I'm debating whether to take him home in a bit and try to get him to nap. I may feel a bit less wonky afterwards, but will it interfere too much with either or both of our sleep tonight?

A few weeks ago the BNL song "Who Needs Sleep?" came up in my playlist and I started laughing hysterically.

The strange part is that, erratic behavior and wild mood swings aside, I actually deal much better with sleep deprivation now than I did before Leif came along.
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I see a new meme going around:

Comments are screened. If you've ever had a smidge of a crush on me, feel free to comment below. I won't mock you, and only you and I will ever know. Then post this in your own LJ and see who might be crushing on you.

Frankly, there are too many people out there who I just don't want to know about to justify possibly satisfying idle curiosity about a few :)

Hmmm....could turn on anonymous commenting instead of screening replies... that would give the ego boost without quite the potential creepy factor.

I doubt I'll respond to anyone else's. Either you're already aware I have/had a crush on you, or there's a reason I haven't told you previously that still applies.

Sleepy sleepy sleepy. Need to remember how to sleep at night, rather than coming up with ideas that seem brilliant in the middle of the night and idiotic once the sun comes up.

As I referred to previously, Leif woke up the other morning suddenly knowing how to use a computer. This isn't all that odd for a kid his age, except that, for all that we're geeks and all, he's never really had a computer of his own. He's watched movies on a computer, and "played games" (meaning he watched and occasionally pointed while one of us manuevered the mouse) for 20 minutes every week or two on the library computers, but he's never really interacted with them himself.

Now he plays the Blue's Clues game all on his own, and just started the Madeleine game, also all on his own, so somehow he's discovered how to double click. I thought he'd done it by accident, but he threw a fit when I tried to start Blue's Clues again instead, and was very insistent that Madeleine was the one he wanted (though it held his interest all of two minutes).

Hmm. Something smells like burning. I hope they aren't trying to burn down the complex again like they did the other day. Well, a storage shed anyways.
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Um, when I talked about Leif passing out early, I didn't really mean 5PM early...

*sigh*
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I woke up hearing someone messing around with our stuff outside. Turned out to be the neighbor's cat, who wanted in out of the rain. But now I can't get back to sleep.

I'm tempted to give the doula program a piece of my mind. I sign up for two days a week. On those two days, I can't go further from home than the library (and even then I'm unlikely to get there within the 30 minute response time if they call - I basically have to be sitting at home ready to go for that to happen) and have to be ready to drop everything at any moment, pack Leif off to friends, and rush to the hospital. This means that my friend is also on call on these days.

I haven't been in since November. It's disheartening, especially since I'm the only person on the schedule those two days. I get no feedback, so I don't know if there's something I'm doing wrong that's causing me not to get called. I did get called once, but it was randomly on a day I wasn't actually on the schedule, and they found someone else before I could arrange care for Leif.

Looking at the tentative schedule for the next two weeks the coordinator just sent out, I don't think it's just me. Only four people (out of 50 or so on the mailing list) responded for her first request for availability information, and there are lots of slots open. I'm sure some will come out of the woodwork (like I did) now that she's basically sent the final reminder, but still, it looks like people are losing interest. Only 2 people other than me attended the last group meeting.

I have a friend who was in the program a few years back who eventually quit because she was never being called in.

I know the coordinator can't force the midwives and nurses to call doulas, and maybe there just truly isn't the demand. Not everyone wants a random stranger to come in and sit with them during labor.

Still, it seems like something needs to change if they want the program to work. The current coordinator is moving on to a new project (making the hospital into an official baby friendly hospital, meaning basically that they provide exceptional breastfeeding support), so perhaps the new coordinator will be able to push the program a bit more.

A funny LJ coincidence happened yesterday. In the morning, someone posted in [livejournal.com profile] ucdavis about seeing a cop staking out a local bank with a rifle, and mentioned seeing some people across the street taking about it and taking pictures. In the evening, I saw a post while reading friendsfriends from the person who had been taking the pictures. The really odd part - she's was just visiting Davis for the weekend, and our mutual friend lives on the other side of the country and has no connection to Davis. She was, however, with a local friend who is on the friends list of my former roommate. Small world.

Leif is in love with the Babar movie. It's cute, but I find I really don't like the colonialist, materialist message it has. Yes, the elephants are of course oh so much happier wearing clothing and living in a city than they were frolicking in the wild. And then there's the mommy-death, which, if I'd thought about it in advance, probably would have had me avoiding it entirely. The inconsistancies between the movie and the bonus episode on the DVD bug me, too. In the movie, he clearly becomes king as an adult. In the bonus episode, he's a child king. Ah well, continuity is for wimps.

I should try to get more sleep. 5 hours really isn't enough.
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Leif fell asleep at 4 today and is still out. This does not bode well for tonight.

We were heading out for park/ice cream/whatever, and I told him that he needed to go potty, since he hadn't been since before library story time this morning. He refused, threw a fit, and then fell asleep. And then peed all over the place in his sleep an hour or so later.

I expect he's probably a little sick, both because of the sleeping and the peeing.

I was looking forward to the ice cream.
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Leif has been asleep since 5:45 PM yesterday, with a few brief wakings. It's 8:00AM now, and he is just starting to wake up.

Must be growth spurt time.

If I could get him to drop his nap and do things similrly every night, I would, except that it means he barely sees [livejournal.com profile] koyote at all. It would be better if he could go to sleep at 8 or so.
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Today I tried doing aikido without glasses. Occasionally I've removed them when doing certain movements that have the tendency to throw them off my head, but today I tried the whole class. I realized that they're a psychological crutch at best, and a hinderance at worst, since I tend to be more hesitant during rolls and so forth when wearing them. I can see just well enough to be able to see what the sensei is doing, and I don't generally pick much up from watching anyways, so there isn't really any benefit to wearing them. I think it also helps me focus a little better, since I'm not getting distracted by other people as much. And I'm not running the risk of breaking them.

It worked out ok. I still want contacts again, though.

My shoulder is feeling odd from where I mildly dislocated it a week ago. Not painful, just looser. [livejournal.com profile] koyote could even feel it when he was rubbing my shoulders. I'm not sure if this is good or bad.

I finally got called in to be a doula again on Thursday, which was a relief. After being called three times in three weeks, I hadn't been called at all for several weeks, and I was beginning to wonder if I'd screwed up. Looking at the logbook, there were only about 5 people called in during that time, so I expect it was nothing personal.

Leif has not had a nap today, so I'll be shocked if he isn't asleep by 9. Yay, non-kids movie time! Maybe more Firefly.
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I never thought I'd say this, but I'm sooo ready for Leif to drop his nap. These days, he tends to fall asleep around four or five, and then not fall asleep for the night till way too late. Even though it means I get no time in the middle of the day, I'd rather he just wait till eight or so and be out for the night.

I'll have to see what happens tomorrow. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday he has morning activities, and that seems to push back his naptime.
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Yay, the new version of LiveWidget fixes the brokenness. Now it works again!

This is basically a test post to make sure it's really truly working.

Leif just shared my espresso with me (ETA: I realized how bad this sounds. By "shared", I mean he had a few tiny sips, not that he drank half of it). Then he passed out, even though it's several hours earlier than he usually goes down for a nap. No clue if the two are related, but coffee always made me sleepy when I was a kid. It's not like he had that much, though. Just a few little sips.

Actually, now that I think about it, a nap at this time isn't all that unusual on days when he doesn't have an activity in the morning.

It's good that he's napping now, though. Means we can go out and do something this afternoon. We need to get to the store, but after that I may take us for a nice long bike ride. We haven't been doing more than short, necessary trips lately because of the weather, and I'm feeling like I'm not getting enough exercise.
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It's 9:30, and Leif is still passed out. I guess he's really sick, and not just throwing up randomly for no good reason.

I'm not sure I'm feeling 100% myself, but that could be psychosomatic. A little bit of achiness and a tiny bit of upset stomach. Not enough to keep me from desiring coffee.

Guess we're not going to the party today :( Not that it really makes a huge difference, since parties tend to consist of me eating some food and then sitting around watching Leif play somewhere in the general vicinity. Still, I was looking forward to it.
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I've become a little obsessed with the idea of avocado as dessert. I don't actually really like avocados. Guacamole - yes, plain avocado - no. Many cultures swear by it though, so there must be something to it.

I made an avocado smoothie today, and it was alright. The texture was pretty amazing, but neither [livejournal.com profile] koyote or I could quite get past the flavor. He felt it really needed to be savory, with more salt. I wondered what it would have been like with a little added sweetener rather than just fruit (I threw in the last little bits of Leif's green juice, some kiwis, and some orange juice).

It may have been a little too much, though. I'm left feeling slightly nauseous. I'm not sure how much off that is psychological and how much is because avocados are rich.

I found a recipe for an avacado-lime pie which is supposedly indistinguishable from ordinary key lime pie. Interesting.

I'm similarly fascinated with the concept of eggplant as dessert, but have yet to try it, (and may not, as there is a lot less prior art). Baba ganoush seems made for dessertification, texturewise anyways.

I hope Leif wakes up soon so he'll sleep at a reasonable time tonight. He's been out for 3.5 hours now, and goes back to sleep every time he wakes briefly. Next time he gets up, perhaps I'll just drag him outside.

I'm not sure how I feel about LJ's new school directory function. I've added myself, but don't know if I'll leave myself there.
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Well, Leif woke up at about 4:00 last night, and stayed awake till about 5:30. Then he went to sleep again until 9:30. Wow. That's about 15 hours of sleep. I even got enough, even though I stayed up ridiculously late.
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I've been going through iPhoto all evening, getting pictures posted, organizing, and so forth.

I have 4043 pictures, taking up over 4GB of disk space. Probably well over 3000 of these are of Leif.

My eventual goal is to take the best pictures, stick them into a PDF, upload them to Lulu, and then order printed copies for myself and as family Christmas presents. In theory, it should actually be cheaper than regular scrapbooking. I just have to actually get around to doing it.

I also need to go through and delete blurry shots, very similar shots of the same pose, and so forth.

The only problem is that this task gets more daunting with each picture we take.

I just get nervous about having all our pictures digital, even though intellectually I know that it's a lot safer than having only hardcopies. I mean, with under an hour's effort (and most of that devoted to learning how to work our DVD burner) and $10, I can send backup copies of the entire collection to multiple locations anywhere in the world. I have backups through February in multiple places already (actually, it's possible they all ended up here during the move. Must remedy that). But I'd still feel better having some printed copies anyways.

Leif fell asleep at 5:30PM today, and has basically been out since. He wasn't willing to stay awake another moment longer. I really hope that by some miracle he's able to sleep until a semi-reasonable hour. 6:30AM would be tolerable - I've been waking up around then anyways. I can always hope.

It's always weird listening to music you haven't bothered listening to in ages and suddenly having a very vivid flashback to another time listening to it. In this case, the DC Undernet Opermeet in 1999. How random. (Even stranger, I'm not 100% sure I even had this particular CD along on that trip.)
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I think Leif may be dropping his afternoon nap. Lately, if he takes one, he's awake and frantic until after 11, and he often doesn't sleep terribly soundly when he does take one. He didn't get more than about 10 minutes of a nap today. Hopefully he'll go to sleep by 9 or so.

I'm so not ready for that, but I guess if he starts getting to bed consistently early, it will help make up for it.

We think he's going through a big development spurt right now. He's been sick a lot lately, and that seems to happen when he's growing - he gets a fever, and comes out of it doing all sorts of new stuff. He's also being very fussy in general. Such fun.

ETA: He fell asleep at 8:00 :)
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This morning Leif decided to take a nap at 9:30AM. This is quite unusual for him, but turned out to be a good thing later.

Today I ran over a bull snake on my bike. I think the trailer went over it, too. I surprised myself by immediately starting to sob, but it seemed to be ok - it slithered away into the brush as soon as it got over the shock.

We went to a BBQ this evening. It was great fun. Leif surprised us by falling asleep on the way there (probably due to his way-early morning nap), and surprised us even more by staying passed out for a good hour and a half or more. I actually had time to socialize. Wow. This is very not normal!

When he woke up and discovered that he was at the playground with lots of yummy food and nice people, he was quite happy.

He played with a little boy who turned two a few days ago and was talking up a storm. He not only said he was going up the ladder - he said (correctly) that he was going up the right side of the ladder.

As I've said, I'm not particularly worried about Leif, but it is tough seeing other kids Leif's age or younger letting everyone know exactly what is going on inside their heads. I expect they also tend to get interacted with on a higher level, as it is obvious how much they understand. I'm guilty of this myself. I know he understands a lot, but the more verbal 2 year olds seem to be understanding more than I've attributed to him. I don't know whether there is any truth to this or not.

It also makes me wonder if I'm not doing enough to mentally stimulate him. I know, kids develop at different rates and all. But I'm the mom - worrying is my job.

Leif threw a little one year old girl today. He wasn't trying to be mean - a big kid (10-12) was carrying him around yesterday, and he had a blast. From the way it happened, I expect he was just trying to do the same for her, but didn't quite have the strength to actually hold on. Still, it was incredibly embarrasing. He THREW her, geez! I guess we'll be keeping a very very close eye on him near smaller kids for a while.

I love our washing machine. It makes me happy.
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I mentioned in the last post that I thought Leif was probably a little speech delayed.

One of the reasons for this is that he isn't making two word sentences yet. However, today he woke up from his nap and [livejournal.com profile] koyote wasn't there. He signed "all gone" (which he's actually never done before that I've noticed) and said "da".

So he seems to be discovering the concept of combining two words, at least.

We're not really concerned. He obviously hears and understands just fine, because he can follow complex directions. We'll bring it up at the next doctor's visit, but I think he just has other priorities. Like bike riding, climbing everything he can find, and otherwise scaring me to death.

He fell asleep at 8:30 again tonight. Perhaps he's going back to that schedule. I can hope, but I'm not counting on it.
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Leif fell asleep at 8:30. He hasn't done this in months. He had two brief naps today, but he doesn't usually compensate for lack of naps by falling asleep quite this early. I'm hoping that this is an actual night-night, and not a really really late nap. And that he isn't sick. [livejournal.com profile] koyote suggests possibly a growth spurt.

I didn't get one of the UC Davis jobs. No big surprise there. I hold no hope for the other one, seeing as the interview went worse and it's been forever. This isn't totally a bad thing - I had serious doubts about working for that department again, but would have felt obligated to take a job if offered, just because it was a job.

The ladder up to the loft is boarded off again, after we twice discovered him up in the loft when our backs were turned for 10 seconds. It's just a wee bit too heart-attack inducing.

Leif has peed in the potty three times now with basically no prompting.
Talking about excrement and stuff. Many of you probably don't really care. )

Of course, it would be nice if he'd learn to sit on the potty, rather than standing on top of it...

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