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What is it about sickness and insomnia? Sometimes it's understandable - you sleep the whole day, and that keeps you awake all night. But that's not the case here. I've had four hours of sleep, and maybe six hours last night, with no naps, and I'm wide awake. Exhausted, but wide awake.
Wide awake, and full of energy. I feel like I really should go into work, but I know I'd be miserable if I did, and increase the risk of dragging this out for weeks, which seems to be the case for a lot of people who get it.
I woke up at 4:00 or so and finished A Wind in the Door. Then decided to get up and use the computer for a while. Typed in my screensaver password before turning the monitor on... and discovered that I was not actually running a screensaver, and that I'd just sent my password (which also happened to be the password for the account I was using at the time... (Yes, I know, reusing passwords is dumb. But I'm human)) to #k5. Oops. Nothing like an early morning urgent password change...
IRC'd for a while. K5'd for a while. Played around with Amazon for a while. It's too bad about their privacy policy, or lack thereof. I like playing with their customized features. Except that their reccomendations always end up reccomending things that are either by one of two authors or are about autism. Went back to bed and read some short stories from Blood Child, since writing about it in my last entry reminded me of it. Tried to go back to sleep, and the thought popped into my head, "My parents are getting divorced."
This is a thought I can't get used to. I guess I will at some point, but it just seems so incongruent with the rest of my life.
My parents were married 25 years. Everyone thought they had a great, strong marriage. I thought so too, up until March, when my mom mentions out of the blue that she's considering seperating. She did so in June immediatly after school got out (she's a teacher), and filed for divorce in July, which is final on Christmas.
She and my dad took long walks together every night up until the night before she left. She apparently hasn't spoken to him since.
Sometimes I really don't understand people.
What is it about sickness and insomnia? Sometimes it's understandable - you sleep the whole day, and that keeps you awake all night. But that's not the case here. I've had four hours of sleep, and maybe six hours last night, with no naps, and I'm wide awake. Exhausted, but wide awake.
Wide awake, and full of energy. I feel like I really should go into work, but I know I'd be miserable if I did, and increase the risk of dragging this out for weeks, which seems to be the case for a lot of people who get it.
I woke up at 4:00 or so and finished A Wind in the Door. Then decided to get up and use the computer for a while. Typed in my screensaver password before turning the monitor on... and discovered that I was not actually running a screensaver, and that I'd just sent my password (which also happened to be the password for the account I was using at the time... (Yes, I know, reusing passwords is dumb. But I'm human)) to #k5. Oops. Nothing like an early morning urgent password change...
IRC'd for a while. K5'd for a while. Played around with Amazon for a while. It's too bad about their privacy policy, or lack thereof. I like playing with their customized features. Except that their reccomendations always end up reccomending things that are either by one of two authors or are about autism. Went back to bed and read some short stories from Blood Child, since writing about it in my last entry reminded me of it. Tried to go back to sleep, and the thought popped into my head, "My parents are getting divorced."
This is a thought I can't get used to. I guess I will at some point, but it just seems so incongruent with the rest of my life.
My parents were married 25 years. Everyone thought they had a great, strong marriage. I thought so too, up until March, when my mom mentions out of the blue that she's considering seperating. She did so in June immediatly after school got out (she's a teacher), and filed for divorce in July, which is final on Christmas.
She and my dad took long walks together every night up until the night before she left. She apparently hasn't spoken to him since.
Sometimes I really don't understand people.
